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    greetings young padawan

    When referencing this document, please remember that all depictions of anatomical structures are approximations of averages, and are all necessarily reductive. The aim of collected visuals and descriptions is to provide you with orientation points, and support you in navigating through your experience (-ing) and your research (-ing). Anatomy, as is embodied by you right now, is an emergent* phenomenon, a material expression of your and your ancestors’ continued intra-acting with the world. It is currently evidencing results of a process that has been ongoing since the literal beginning of time.

    From what I can tell, most artists I admire agree that the motivation that moves one towards creativity comes from some unknowable source. What I had hoped to do with this workshop is give some examples of how it is possible to recognise, orient towards, and move with the unknowable in a critically-aware way. Critical here does not stand for negative or antagonistic. Critical stands for informed, empowered, situated, oriented, self- and co-regulated with the World. I wish you good relationships and informative, encouraging, and generous examples on your way. Strong sails and long keels with get you across the wildest of the oceans safely.

    Thank you for your generosity, commitment, and patience. It was a true honour working with you.

    till we meet again, pav

    *Emergent Strategy by adrienne maree brown (link)

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    2024-11-21 (reading list)

    2024-11-05

    table of content

    • greetings young padawan
    • procedure:
    • 2024-08-29
    • reading list:
    • conversations
    • anatomical references and study materials:
    • videos and quotes:
    • Tower Seminar, Beyond IDOCDE transcript:
    • general reflections

    procedure:

    day 1

    • storytelling circle;
    • SOMA, what is somatics;
    • reflex,
      • activation, excitement,
      • (discussing the qualities of the sympathetic nervous system).
    • experiment 1:
      • clarity
    • lunch,
    • enteric nervous system,
      • rest, digestion,
      • (discussing the qualities of the parasympathetic nervous system).
    • experiment 2:
      • clarity + expanded observation;
    • performative practice, focus: performative;
      • The Moon Practice;
      • The Sun Practice.

    day 2

    • hands-on:
      • electromagnetism,
      • touch procedure (ethics of touch),
      • experiment:
        • holding the space to remember
      • cellular touch (warm, general, regenerative);
    • lunch,
    • CSF (cerebrospinal fluid) + fluid touch;
    • performative practice, focus: practice;
      • The Moon Practice,
      • recording of The Moon Practice.

    day 2, talk

    • dance documentation, archiving, activating modes of capture,

    questions?

    if any questions come up, please send them to me at

    pavleheidler@pavleheidler.com

    i’ll respond as soon as i’m able

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    2024-08-29

    i first started writing the following to add to a travel grant i was asked to hand in on behalf of a choreographer i am working for. writing this, i experienced a moment of clarity, which is why i’m sharing the text with you, as an example of dancing clarity in writing.

    i like to say that my job is to make people's dreams come true.

    whenever i say that sentence, i am reminded of my training; it's like something in my mind softens and i become conscious of the brilliant, relational sensitivity of my cellular existence and/or consciousness; social components of life recede in that moment, allowing bodily materiality to step into the spotlight and so transform or influence the way i can relate to others or participate in this world. it is through this process–of saying and remembering what i think my job is–that i keep becoming a dance artist.

    i say 'dreams' to capture something of the range of interests and capacities i've encountered working as a dancer in the field. at one end of that range or spectrum i find something like a concern with prestige, at the other the inexplicable urge to love a seemingly random and irrelevant abstraction. a choreographer like Cristina Caprioli, whom i worked with for a better part of a decade, has required of me to hold that whole spectrum in my imaginary at 15:49h on a Tuesday afternoon as I moved along the paths determined by her materials, looking for ways to become the one who’s going to show her something that, up until that very moment, she'd only ever seen in herself.

    which is where ‘truth’ becomes interesting, doesn’t it? because, of course, when talking about ‘dreams coming true’ we’re talking about something subjective, not objective and definitely not reasonable. artists, traditionally speaking, do not deal in reason. ‘reason’ is not of our lineage and was never meant to be our responsibility; we’d never have come up with ‘reason’ on our own. what artists do and have been doing, the way i understand it, was evidencing all the different ways bodies in this world are able to perceive and make sense of their environment, their experience, their relationship. artists are like gardeners of alternatives, tenders of options, committed to protecting the complexity in texture and range of what it could mean to be alive.

    reading list:

    nonfiction

    Artistic Research in a World on Fire by Lucy Cotter (link)

    And Then, You Act by Anne Bogart

    Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? by Jeanette Winterson

    Emergent Strategy by adrienne maree brown (link)

    The Undercommons: Fugitive Planning & Black Study by Fred Moten and Stephano Harney

    Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer

    Gender Trouble by Judith Butler

    Meeting the Universe Halfway by Karen Barad

    12 bytes by Jeanette Winterson (essays)

    Staying with the Trouble by Donna Haraway

    Testo Junkie by Paul B. Preciado

    This Life by Martin Hägglund

    Everybody by Olivia Laing

    The Garden Against Time by Olivia Laing

    Your Silence Will Not Protect You by Audre Lorde (essays)

    The Privilege of Partial Perspective by Donna Haraway (essay, link)

    Consider This: Moments in My Writing Life after Which Everything Was Different by Chuck Palahniuk

    anatomy

    Sensing, Feeling, and Action by Bonnie Bainbridge Cohen (link) !!!

    A Journey to the Centre of the Cell (essay, link)

    The Feeling of What Happens by Antonio Damasio (feelings)

    The Second Brain by Michael Gershon et al (“gut feeling”)

    fiction

    Oranges are Not the Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson

    Parable of the Sower + The Parable of the Talents by Octavia E. Butler

    The Dispossessed by Ursula K. le Guin

    Earthsea Chronicles by Ursula K. le Guin

    conversations

    2023 merehobbyists in Conversation (to Vimeo)

    2022 The Supergiant Star Practice in Conversation (to Vimeo)

    2019 sappho’s conversations (to Vimeo)

    2018 The Event Horizon Practice in Conversation (to Vimeo)

    2018 The Event Horizon Practice in Conversation (to Vimeo)

    2018 sappho’s conversations (to Vimeo)

    2015 The Moon Practice in Conversation (to Vimeo)

    2015 The Sun Practice in Conversation (to Vimeo)

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    anatomical references and study materials:

    soma <> σῶμα

    SOMA (ancient greek) for:

    • body,
    • one’s life in the physical world,
    • material,
    • person,
    • an entire thing,
    • (math) three dimensional object.

    Wikipedia σῶμαWikipedia σῶμα

    on reading about anatomy

    As you move through different materials and engage in your own explorations, and especially if you start reading about anatomy, don’t be alarmed when you discover that the same word can be used to describe different anatomical structures, or physiological phenomena.

    It may help to check when the material was published, and by whom.

    If you ever get disoriented when reading about a particular structure, take a moment, and—when ready—reread the sentence that confused you, retrace the image, give yourself some time, and a new experience.

    If a definition of a structure or a property does not make sense, if it evokes no feeling in you, that description might simply not work for you. Find one that does.

    Start with those descriptions, those images that you can make sense of in-the-moment, no matter how basic they may be; work with them, understand them, play with them until they stop making sense. When an image that meant the world to you becomes a bit boring, underwhelming, or simply stops capturing your attention is usually when you’re ready to look for a new image; maybe a slightly more complex image, a more detailed description, or a more nuanced interpretation. Remember that the experience of learning is cyclical. Read about the learning curve.

    hands on procedure, the ethic of:

    1. always touch yourself first;
    2. ask before placing your hands on another person;
    3. check in with your partner, even if you think it’s unnecessary, inquire into their experience;
    4. practice patience (regulate through your parasympathetic nervous system);
    5. remember that you’re receiving stimuli, wait for your partner’s body to come to you, remember my suggestion to call the sense of your partner’s anatomy to your hands;
    6. remember that the cells of your hands are in touch with the cells of your partner’s body first;
    7. check in with your partner, even if you think it’s unnecessary, inquire into their experience;
    8. remember the principle what you measure with determines what you can measure, call to your own senses the part of your own anatomy to attract the experience of that same anatomical aspect in your partner (if you want to get in touch with their CSF, contact your own CSF first).

    these principles and others you’d discover for yourself through practice define what i call the non-invasive characteristic of the BMC® approach. remember that you are not going into your partner’s body, but calling their body to you.

    in case you’re interested or become interested in invasive approaches, practice non-invasive approaches first. learn how to check in with your partner regularly, and build a trusting relationship before you start considering invasiveness.

    invasiveness or non-invasiveness are not in-and-of-themselves good or bad characteristics of any approach. each could serve a purpose. there’s a time and a place for everything. what influences their value between people is the ethic you develop and embody in and through your practice.

    nervous system classification

    • the nervous system can be classified in several ways.
      • central (brain and spinal cord);
      • peripheral.
      • somatic (intentional),
      • autonomic (homeostasis):
        1. sympathetic (fright, flight, or freeze),
        2. parasympathetic (rest and recuperation).

    reflex

    Most frequently, a reflex will be defined as an involuntary action activated through “a reflex arc” in response to a specific stimuli. In class, we looked at an example of a reflex arc when we looked at the sensory-motor coördination (see below for image).

    One of the crucial characteristics of a reflex is that it requires stimulation to occur. In BMC®, a reflex is often described as existing in a state of potential until that time comes when it is embodied in response to an appropriate stimulus. In class, we stepped on a balancing ball to trigger some of those reflexes that BMC® classifies under righting reactions.

    Remember the Moro reflex? The one that extended our arms laterally to support us in regaining a sense of orientation and balance? Remember how quickly the Moro reflex showed itself in some bodies? You can often recognise involuntary actions relative to how quickly they show up. You can also recognise them by asking the person, Did you notice what you did with your arms? Look at their face when you ask them a question like that, you may get to appreciate the most wonderful expression of surprise.

    Here are some examples of definitions of reflexes I found online:

    “Reflexes are automatic and involuntary actions the body produces in response to certain stimuli. While some reflexes can involve muscles and movement, others involve internal processes within the body.”

    Megan Monte What are reflexes? Definition and examplesMegan Monte What are reflexes? Definition and examples

    “[…] according to 1989 guidelines issued by the American Academy of Neurology, “[…] Primitive reflexes and vegetative functions […] are either controlled by the brainstem or are so elemental that they require no brain regulation at all.”

    PubMed Central (PMC) What is a reflex? A guide for understanding disorders of consciousnessPubMed Central (PMC) What is a reflex? A guide for understanding disorders of consciousness

    “REFLEXES are processed in the spine and the low-brain. They are our most primitive responses.”

    Internet Archive Sensing, feeling, and action : the experiential anatomy of body-mind centering : Cohen, Bonnie BainbridgeInternet Archive Sensing, feeling, and action : the experiential anatomy of body-mind centering : Cohen, Bonnie Bainbridge
    (page 141)

    • RIGHTING REACTIONS (page 127-129)
    • MORO REFLEX (page 144-145)
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    sensory-motor coördination

    Broadly speaking, sensory receptor registers proximity to heat, triggering the sensory nerve. The sensory nerve delivers electric and chemical stimuli to the back of the spinal cord, and via the inter neuron, passes the stimuli to the motor nerve. The motor nerve reaches from the front of the spinal cord towards the periphery, engaging appropriate responses via effector organs, mainly muscles and glands.

    (note: In class, we did not look at sensory receptors and effector organs.)

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    Remember the conversation in which we compared compared sensing to a motor response, whereby the act of sensing becomes evident in the physiological changes you’re experiencing as you’re relating to the environment? As opposed to it [sensing] being compared with the words you speak to yourself internally when you decide that you are, indeed, sensing something?

    homeostasis

    In biology, homeostasis (British also homoeostasis; /hɒmioʊˈsteɪsɪs, -miə-/) is the state of steady internal physical and chemical conditions maintained by living systems.[1] This is the condition of optimal functioning for the organism and includes many variables, such as body temperature and fluid balance, being kept within certain pre-set limits (homeostatic range).

    from Wikipedia

    Buckminster Fuller, tensegrity model
    Buckminster Fuller, tensegrity model

    tensegrity

    Tensegrity refers to structurally sound constructions that feature a radical separation of compression and tension. Generally the compression members are wooden or metal struts, while the tensional members are cables, rubber bands, string or steel wires. Tensegrity structures are admired as with gossamer tendons or struts, their solid struts seem almost magically suspended in air.

    for more go to

    buckyfullerinstitute Tensegritybuckyfullerinstitute Tensegrity

    fascia

    Traditionally, the word fascia was used primarily by surgeons to describe the dissectible tissue seen in the body encasing other organs, muscles, and bones. Recently, the definition has been broadened to include all collagenous based soft tissues in the body, including cells that create and maintain the extracellular matrix. The new definition also includes certain tendons, ligaments, bursae, endomysium, perimysium, and epimysium.

    https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK526038/

    the meninges

    The brain and spinal cord are enveloped within three layers of membrane collectively known as the meninges, with the cranial meninges specifically referring to the section that covers the brain. From superficial to deep, the three layers are the dura, arachnoid, and pia—the term “mater,” Latin for mother, often follows these names (i.e., dura mater, arachnoid mater, pia mater).[1] The dura, Latin for “hard,” is composed of dense connective tissue and adheres to the inner surface of the skull and vertebrae. The arachnoid is a thin, wispy membrane that lies just deep to the dura and is superficial to the pia, the very thin, clear membrane that directly adheres to the surface of the brain and spinal cord. Forming from these layers are three clinically significant spaces, or potential spaces (sometimes called cavities): the epidural, subdural, and subarachnoid spaces, from superficial to deep. The chief function of the meninges is to protect the contents of the brain and spinal cord.[2]

    https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK539882/

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    cerebrospinal fluid

    The CSF [CerebroSpinal Fluid] is clear and very slow moving. Its movement is powered by the cranial-scaral/coccygeal pump (movement between the skull and the tail). It has its own rhythic cycle called the CSF Rhythm (CSFR) which is different than theblood pulse and respiratory rhythms. Like the blood pulse, the CSFR can be felt in all parts of the body.

    Internet Archive Sensing, feeling, and action : the experiential anatomy of body-mind centering : Cohen, Bonnie BainbridgeInternet Archive Sensing, feeling, and action : the experiential anatomy of body-mind centering : Cohen, Bonnie Bainbridge
    (page 78)

    CSF appears to have several important functions. One of these functions is to provide a buoyant force to support the brain and spinal cord. The brain has a significant amount of mass (approximately 1500 gm) while at the same time being relatively malleable. However, since the CSF surrounds the brain, it dissipates much of the downward force that would normally act on the organ. This dissipation reduces the stress on the brain and allows it to maintain its shape. When surrounded by adequate CSF, the brain exerts significantly less tension on exiting nerve roots.[5] Another function of CSF that comes from its physical properties as fluid is to protect the brain from the damage that would result from a sudden movement of the skull. Any rapid acceleration/deceleration of the head has the potential to injure the delicate contents contained within. The CSF helps reduce the potential damage in such an event by acting as a cushion and a shock absorber.

    https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK470578/

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    videos and quotes:

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    Bogart 2007, p. 95 (and then, you act)

    “I own an old Tiffany clock, inherited from my grandparents. It is a clock that must be would by hand once a week. One day, in my haste and insensitivity, I would the clock too hard and it broke. My hand had not sensed the millisecond that the winding had reached its limit. I executed the move and plenty of feedforward—intent and will—but experienced very little feedback. I turned it too aggressively and the mechanism broke.

    The French director Ariane Mnouchkine proposes that an actor needs to be ‘concave and convex’ and describes receptivity as active. The mark of a great actor is the ability to balance feedforward with feedback. An actor with a lot of feedforward and not enough feedback comes across as aggressive and invulnerable. Although we may be impressed by their prowess, ultimately it is hard to find empathy or interest in their situation. An actor with too little feedforward and an excess of feedback merely seems narcissistic or lethargic. Again, you do not care about them. An effective actor extends out into the world and at the same time allows him- or herself to receive impressions back and be charged by the experience. as an audience, we viscerally live through the actor’s sensual taste of the moment’s returns.”

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    Wild Geese by Mary Oliver

    You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers. Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again. Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting - over and over announcing your place in the family of things.

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    brown 2017, p. ?? (Emergent Strategies)

    “What is Emergence?

    ‘Emergence is the way complex systems and patterns arise out of a multiplicity of relatively simple interactions’—I will repeat these words from Nick Obolenksy throughout this book because they are the clearest articulation of emergence that I have come across. In the framework of emergence, the whole is a mirror of the parts. Existence is fractal—the health of the cell is the health of the species and the planet. There are examples of emergence everywhere. Birds don’t make a plan to migrate, raising resources to fund their way, packing for scarce times, mapping out their pit stops. They feel a call in their bodies that they must go, and they follow it, responding to each other, each bringing their adaptations. There is an art to flocking: staying separate enough not to crowd each other, aligned enough to maintain a shared direction, and cohesive enough to always move towards each other. (Responding to destiny together.) Destiny is a calling that creates a beautiful journey. Emergence is beyond what the sum of its parts could even imagine. A group of caterpillars or nymphs might not see flight in their future, but it’s inevitable. It’s destiny. Oak trees don’t set an intention to listen to each other better, or agree to hold tight to each other when the next storm comes. Under the earth, always, they reach for each other, they grow such that their roots are intertwined and create a system of strength that is as resilient on a sunny day as it is in a hurricane. Dandelions don’t know whether they are a weed or a brilliance. But each seed can create a field of dandelions. We are invited to be that prolific. And to return fertility to the soil around us. Cells may not know civilization is possible. They don’t amass as many units as they can sign up to be the same. No—they grow until they split, complexify. Then they interact and intersect and discover their purpose—I am a lung cell! I am a tongue cell!—and they serve it. And they die. And what emerges from these cycles are complex organisms, systems, movements, societies. Nothing is wasted, or a failure. Emergence is a system that makes use of everything in the iterative process. It’s all data.”

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    Moten and Harney 2013, p. 26 (The Undercommons)

    "[...]: it cannot be denied that the university is a place or refuge, and it cannot be accepted that the university is a place of enlightenment. In the face of these conditions one can only sneak into the university and steal what one can. To abuse its hospitality, to spite its mission, to join its refugee colony, its gipsy encampment, to be in but not of – this is the path of the subversive intellectual in the modern university." (emphasis added)

    24:26 “Words are the part of silence that can be spoken.”

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    Haraway 2016, p. 16 (Staying with the Trouble)

    "The British social anthropologist Marilyn Strathern, who wrote The Gender of the Gift based on her ethnographic work in highland Papua New Guinea (Mt. Hagen), taught me that ‘it matters what ideas we use to think other ideas (with).’ (4) Strathern is an ethnographer of thinking practices. She embodies for me the arts of feminist speculative fabulation in the scholarly mode. It matters what matters we use to think other matters with; it matters what stories we tell to tell other stories with; it matters what knots knot knots, what thoughts think thoughts, what descriptions describe descriptions, what ties tie ties. It matters what stories make worlds, what worlds make stories.

    Strathern wrote about accepting the risk of relentless contingency; she thinks about anthropology as the knowledge practice that studies relations with relations, that puts relations at risk with other relations, from unexpected other worlds. In 1933, Alfred North Withehead, the American mathematician and process philosopher who infused my sense of worlding, wrote The Adventures of Ideas. (5)

    SF is precisely full of such adventures. Isabelle Stengers, a chemist, scholar of Whitehead and Gilles Deleuze, radical thinker about materiality in sciences, and an unruly feminist philosopher, gives me ‘speculative thinking’ in abundance. With Isabelle Stengers we cannot denounce the world in the name of an ideal world. In the spirit of feminist communitarian anarchism and the idiom of Whitehead’s philosophy, she maintains that decisions must take place somehow in the presence of those who will bear their consequences. This is what she means by cosmopolitics. (6)”

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    Tower Seminar, Beyond IDOCDE transcript:

    Beyond IDOCDE, a love letter to a study of documenting dance;

    Tower Seminar on Dance Archiving, organised by Jenny Roche at the Irish World Academy, University of Limerick

    In 2013, after about five and a half years living in Bruxelles, I moved to Stockholm to study at the Stockholm University of the Arts’ MFA program New Performative Practices, created and directed—until recently—by Chrysa Parkinson. Soon thereafter I received a phone call from Francesco Scavetta, a choreographer and a teacher I met back when I lived in Salzburg. Francesco told me about the Erasmus+ project he was supporting as a partner institution, called IDOCDE. At the time, I knew nothing about Erasmus+, “partner institutions”, or any of the many Erasmus+ categories, evaluation methodologies, etc.

    As a partner of the project, Francesco said, one of his responsibilities was to organise events during which IDOCDE was going to be presented to the professional audience. His only problem was the location of his institution. Vitlycke — Centre for Perofrming Arts is situated north of Göteborg, on Sweden’s west coast, a literal stone-throw away from a rock nested in the forest floor known for more than 500 engraved images that were carved into its surface during the Bronze Age. You get the picture, that’s remote. Since I lived in Stockholm and had an interest in discourse-weaving and knowledge-making, Francesco thought I’d be the perfect candidate to do the job he needed done.

    Photo: Hans Lundenmark, Vitlycke Museum
    Photo: Hans Lundenmark, Vitlycke Museum

    I’d just learned about Danscentrum, an association that offers daily classes to local professionals, rents rehearsal space to members at affordable prices, and helps professionals access the support of the Swedish Union for Performing Arts and Film (Fackförbundet Scen & Film). Danscentrum personnel was welcoming and helped me organise my first IDOCDE-related event where I talked to local professionals about the IDOCDE project.

    IDOCDE stands for International Documentation of Contemporary Dance Education. [pronunciation] The project’s first iteration concerned the making of the IDOCDE website, which was going to create an extra-institutional space for dance professionals—particularly dance educators—to store their research and their documentation and engage in content-specific peer-to-peer exchange***. Imagine the best characteristics of LinkedIn, Facebook, and the Research Catalogue all wrapped up into a single platform eagerly populated by independent dance researchers, artists and educators alike. Talking about utopia.

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    https://www.idocde.net

    Kerstin Kussmaul, the originator of the IDOCDE project, often talked about IDOCDE in terms of accessibility. She’d often talk about the time peer-review takes, about how biased peer-review can be, and about the potential negative consequence of unchecked institutional bias for knowledge-creation overall. Her solution was to offer the possibility for a professional to release their research first, and follow that up by engaging in a peer-to-peer exchange, where—in dialogue—both the researcher and their audience get to determine the value of that particular research from an acknowledged, situated perspective.

    The IDOCDE project’s final dissemination effort (dissemination is another of the Erasmus+ categories I did know anything about in 2013) was the IDOCDE Symposium. The first IDOCDE Symposium took place at the ImPulsTanz — Vienna International Dance Festival in the summer of 2013. With this symposium the IDOCDE project was officially completed, the website released, and the conditions set for the next 10 years of IDOCDE symposia.

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    http://www.idocde.net/pages/192

    I first attended the IDOCDE symposium the following summer, when—as one of the Swedish delegates—I presented a paper entitled On Teaching and the Importance of Being Not. One of the questions I’d ask with this paper was, How do we, as teachers, address the fact that some skills cannot be built under supervision, whilst others cannot be build without it? And what does that mean, to make things practical, in terms of time? Where the question isn’t anymore about whether one should be supervised or not, but at what time, and for how long?

    Before I knew it, I’d joined the IDOCDE team.

    Because of the guidelines that determine the function of Erasmus+, one cannot simply extend their funding. One can only continue working on an existing project with financial support afforded by Erasmus+, by doing so within the context of a new project.

    Our new project was called LEAP. LEAP stands for Learn, Exchange, Apply, Practice. The project’s postulate was fairly simple. Now that we had the IDOCDE website, we wanted to create a project where a group of dance pedagogues, all associates of partner institutions, got to engage in peer-to-peer exchange concerned specifically with the topic of dance documentation and archiving of movement practice, teaching, and non-verbal skills and knowledges. During this exchange, the IDOCDE website served as a resource to all involved in this project, as both a documentation and a dissemination device. This meant that everyone involved needed to learn how to use the IDOCDE website. This also meant that, by using the website, the website was gaining visibility. Through LEAP years, the IDOCDE symposia remained this project’s primary dissemination event.

    After the LEAP years came the REFLEX years. Those were some of the most interesting years for me. Where IDOCDE focused on creating the website, a useful tool, LEAP on implementing that tool and exploring its use within a controlled environment, REFLEX aimed at creating a research tool and guide that was to help facilitate learning through documentation outside of the aforementioned controlled environment, namely, the community of researchers, artists, and pedagogues directly involved with the project. REFLEX, in other words, was going to try and account for what we’ve been discovering during the IDOCDE and LEAP years. Namely, that many dance professionals that attended our events and made use of our platforms had strong, often negative, feelings (!) towards dance documentation which prevented them***

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    https://www.mindthedance.com

    At the time, one of my job titles was that of the co-editor of the IDOCDE website, a function I served next to the website’s original editor, Defne Erdur. Defne was developing the REFLEX tool and guide when I became the website user’s primary contact. With more of my time spent in conversation with the users of our website and given REFLEX’s mission, I was able to discern the three most common issues our users were dealing with:

    1. technology: many of our users had limited computer skills. Especially where dance educators were concerned, many of the professionals we were working with were of the generation that reached adulthood and developed their careers before computers took over, let alone the internet. Over the years, I noticed many talked about computers as tools that were unnecessarily complicated to use and gave little to no sensory feedback, which made using them texturally uninteresting. Many failed to develop any œffective relationship with their devices. Many questioned whether developing aeffective relationships with their devices was worth it;
    2. time: many of our users had little time on their hands. The IDOCDE website and symposia catered to independent researchers, primarily artists and educators, who could barely afford enough time to do their work well in life. Time for reflection, documentation, and preparation was often stolen, be it by the artist (from another activity) or from the artist (by another activity);
    3. community: with most people lacking skills and/or time, and IDOCDE being a singular resource with a weak support system, rare was the example of a person who regarded their documentation practice as specifically useful in the way they navigated their professional context. Furthermore, many people I talked to, who did develop a documentation practice, developed it accidentally, or else benefited from it accidentally. or better, unintentionally. Many developed their practice as a result of having a special interest, rather than a clear understanding of the professional benefit of the practice.

    It took reading Sara Ahmed to understand that these common issues, as I called them, all pointed to larger socio-economic and structural problems that were clearly affecting the members of our community.

    By the end of REFLEX years and the onset of the pandemic, the IDOCDE project came to a close. Having organised many workshops (dissemination events) as well as three instalments of the IDOCDE symposium, the REFLEX project completed its mission with the publishing of the online tool and guide, www.mindthedance.com. Through this collection of essays, exercises, scores, and interviews, and under no supervision, the REFLEX project continues to meet its aim “to inspire dance teachers towards integrating documentation ideas into their practices – to guide and to give resources for the art of reflective teaching”. The summer after the REFLEX project was completed, with the money we saved up over the years, the members of the IDOCDE team—myself included—organised the 10th and the last IDOCDE Symposium.

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    IRA Ferris’S PHOTOS

    Imagined as a celebration of the decade the team spent working on the IDOCDE Symposium, to organise this symposium we turned to Plato whose own Symposium reflects the ancient Greek tradition of gathering after a meal in a conversation accompanied by dancing, singing, reciting, and playing and listening to music. The last IDOCDE Symposium invited no speakers, organised no panels. Instead, everyone attending the Symposium joined the circle hosted at the beginning and the end of the day, in which the community slurped on freshly cut pieces of watermelon. Between the circles, attendees were invited to speak, sing, study, dance, observe, rest, drink and eat, and think of every activity, no matter how visible, as evidencing something known. In terms of representing knowledges emergent in the field of dance science, both within and without the symposium, this was, arguably, our most successful symposium to date.

    Since the last IDOCDE Symposium, all my personal efforts have been focused on the establishment of IDOCDE’s successor, the LACE Symposium for Dance and Other Contemporary Practices—which I’ve been doing alone with one other of my remaining IDOCDE colleagues, Deirdre Morris, and a new team member, Sylvia Scheidl. To continue organising the symposium, Deirdre, Sylvia, and I had to develop a new project with which we successfully secured access to new Erasmus+ funds and, of course, a series of brand, new goals—none of which concern further development of the IDOCDE website. For the time being, the IDOCDE website remains active, but without active moderation or access to IT support its capacities are dwindling.

    I am currently negotiating the possibility of turning the IDOCDE website into a literal archive. Were this transformation to occur, IDOCDE.net would lose its interactive component. The question that keeps me awake at night is this, How does the existence of the interactive component inform any of our reading of the documentation currently accessible via IDOCDE.net? How does, in other words, knowing that documents could be added, removed, edited, or re-contextualised by their authors at any time in the future inform our current reading and understanding of these documents’ purpose? This question reminds me of the fourth most common issue I was able to discern during REFLEX years:

    1. finiteness: many users reported on having trouble accepting the limit of any document mediated through an interface that isn’t ontologically/epistemologically/phenomenologically relational and/or oral, that isn’t itself “alive”, since that limit—in and of itself—contradicts the primary condition and characteristic of dancing, it being “lived”.

    For a long time, something about these issues bothered me. Each one of them, I thought, describes a difficulty, but not an impossibility. Let’s say one might not know how to use the internet. One could learn how to use the internet, couldn’t one? At least some of the people I was talking to over the years, who didn’t know how to use the internet at the time of our conversation, could have been learning how to use the internet instead of complaining. At least those who had access to intellectual, physical, emotional, and financial resources, and necessary gear and training could have been. But what if it’s not a matter of capacity, but rather a matter of preference; what if they chose not to? The same way, perhaps, the Old Norse chose not to use their runes to write down delicate details pertaining to their religion and cosmology, insisting instead on communicating a wide range of information orally, and exclusively during ritual ceremony. Which is something you may want to do some research on, just saying.

    What I realised, thanks to the Old Norse insistence, is that I interpreted the value of the issues I was learning from the users of the IDOCDE website incorrectly. These were not issues, in as much as they were not to be resolved. Quite the contrary, these were the values that IDOCDE users wanted their documentation practices to embody and represent. Looking back through the IDOCDE website while preparing for this talk, I am looking at a project that ended at the beginning. A project that runs the risk of failing their community if we do not find a way to communicate our discoveries and support development of new tools and communities that would make it possible for more people to gather around more experiment and eventually inform the making of new spaces.

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    alys & pav artists’ (e)books

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    When I make an artists’ (e)book with my friend Alys Longley of Aotearoa New Zealand, I do so knowing that I am making a dance. Also knowing that most people who I present this book while calling it a dance will look at me funny and think me cute, if I’m lucky. Every once in a while, however, Alys and I will host an event where, together with other artists presenting their works, we will leaf through our books knowing that we created the conditions necessary for these dances to be felt. The laughter and the tears and the stories told after the turn of the last page will have all attested to our success.

    • note on online symposia, expanding audience because of not traveling and not being bound to the same timezone, which is actually an issue now that we’re streaming because people may not be so interested in watch the symposium on zoom.
    • the years after the pandemic we had online moderators. but last year, for example, with online moderators most joining the streams would not even switch their camera on? that remains confusing.

    discarded:

    Which brings me to today, hello, when I’m standing before you with alinear questions that are difficult-though-not-impossible to reflect in language succinctly, but that I currently cannot really afford to work on. Questions that, nevertheless, occupy my imaginary, interfere with my practice, condition my interactions, and sometimes simply stupefy.

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    general reflections

    circle

    I tend to start my classes with or in a circle. I find a circle in most cases to be the best way to situate the room. I usually open the circle with a brief introduction and a question formulated along the lines of a how are you?, and what are you currently working on?. I tend to come up with the day’s protocol after the responses to my question(s) have been shared and the circle has been closed.

    dialogue

    I like to organise my classes in dialogue with the participant. This is both to ensure that the participants get the satisfaction of having their specific interests addressed, and to create an opportunity for bonding. Additionally, it’s a way for me to learn about the context that I find myself in and the people that I’m relating to. Plus, it’s a fun challenge for someone like me who is both neurodivergent and a skilled improviser.

    language

    I like speculating, fabulating, philosophising, and above all, writing. In class, for example, I do a lot by way of storytelling. Storytelling is how I manage atmosphere, it is also how I navigate group dynamics through embodied dives. My relationship to and fascination with language and languaging is an integral aspect of my practice… but it is also evidence of my neurodivergence. I like to be conscious of that.

    Although conducted largely through storytelling, my classes are meant to be deeply embodied. I take care to communicate that in class.

    situatedness

    There are several reasons why I choose to work like this. The most important has to do with situatedness. Working as a freelance pedagogue, my time is often extremely limited. I’ve learned over the years that I can get the most out of the time I’m given when I situate my work within the context of the participant’s immediate experience (need, curiosity, or desire). When addressing the participant’s immediate experience, I’ve observed that participants tend to respond positively (A) because they feel seen and (B) because they’re offered access to skills that they recognise as immediately and specifically useful. As a result, the participants tend to feel encouraged and empowered and appreciated, which i care about very much.

    regarding situatedness

    I situate my practice within the expanding fields of dance and choreography, where dance and choreography are understood to be critical practices; critical as in critical for the development of the general field of body-based knowledge, and critical as in analytical and self-reflective. The expanding fields of dance and choreography I situate within the western tradition of staged dance and choreography, the development of which stems from the court of Louis XIV and thrives in the present moment there where the artistic and academic modalities are encouraged to intersect.

    One of my main areas of research concerns the notion of Cartesian dualism, i.e., the mind-body split. Within my practice, I am observing some of the ways in which the application of Cartesian dualism in the West complicates the study of dancing, e.g., by forcing us to associate our thinking with a single part of our anatomy, thereby restricting our relationship to thinking itself with linear, language-based standards. Most dancers have, of course, experienced thinking beyond the linear, and beyond the language-based. My question is, what happens when we consider all those non-linear and non-lingual experiences as cognitive experiences? How does our practice change when it becomes knowledgeable even when its, e.g., intuitive? I often identify my aim within this area of research with the term embodiment; I intend the term embodiment to represent the effort opposite to that of a split, i.e., the effort to integrate that which we traditionally associate with “the mind” with what which we traditionally associate with “the body” into a dynamic operative unit.

    Within the context of my research, experience comes first. this means that, by the time I come to reading, I am reading to help me understand how to relate to my experiences. most frequently, i find reason to read fantasy and sci-fi, black and diversity study, and memoirs written by queer folk. Here is a short list of books I am very fond of and refer to frequently.

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    • Your Silence Will Not Protect You by Audre Lorde
    • The Undercommons: Fugitive Planning and Black Study by Stefano Harney and Fred Moten
    • Cruising Utopia by José Esteban Muñoz
    • Neuroqueer by Nick Walker
    • Sick Woman Theory by Johanna Hedva >>> article
    • all about love: New Visions by bell hooks
    • The Feminist Killjoy Handbook by Sara Ahmed
    • Living a Feminist Life by Sara Ahmed
    • Staying with the Trouble by Donna Haraway
    • Sensing Feeling by Eve Kosofsky Sedgwick
    • The Gentrification of The Mind by Sarah Schulman
    • Artist at Work: Proximity of Art and Capitalism by Bojana Kunst
    • Funny Weather: Art in an Emergency by Olivia Laing >>> VIDEO
    • Meeting the Universe Halfway by Karen Barad
    • Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimerrer
    • emergent strategy by adrienne maree brown
    • The Mushroom at the End of the World by Anna Lowenhaupt Tsing
    • Everybody by Olivia Laing
    • The Sandman by Neil Gaiman
    • The Parable of the Sower & The Parable of the Talents by Octavia E. Butler
    • The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. le Guin
    • Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal by Jeanette Winterson
    • This Life by Martin Hägglund
    • Modern Nature by Derek Jarman
    • The Motion of Light in Water by Samuel R. Delany
    • Babel-17 by Samuel R. Delany
    • Gender Trouble by Judith Butler
    • How to Do Things with Words by J. L. Austin

    body-mind centering® in the context of a dance class

    when asked to feature BMC® in the context of a dance class, and when meeting a new group of participants i need to determine who of the participants has what level of experience with BMC® (or another somatic technique) before suggesting engagement in any specific activity. depending on the level of experience and the kind of experience participants may have, i will consider reflecting on the following topics:

    1. somatics in a dance class, a brief history of somatics and a note on ethics (what to pay attention when teaching and being taught somatics in the context of a dance class) + performativity (how do we “read” bodies when working with somatics in a dance class, procedures); (what is orientation?)
    2. basic structure of the nervous system: peripheral, central, and local, somatic and autonomic, sympathetic and parasympathetic + proprioception, interoception, and vestibular; sensory input and motor response; lower and higher cognitive processes, what is a reflex and how to recognise it; the macro and micro sensing apparatuses; (what is sensing?)
    3. what is cellular consciousness, how does the concept of cellular consciousness challenge our understanding of cognitive hierarchies and the way we think of “self”, maybe even “personhood”, brief history of the mind-body split + the potential of this inquiry to inform our understanding and practice of democracy. (what is thinking?)

    the question of ethics + performativity, how do we read bodies would potentially require some examination of:

    1. performativity in gender and queer theory, a brief introduction to the work of j.l. austin and judith butler;
    2. application of performativity to dancing and choreography, an introduction to reading dance history from the perspective of performativity studies;
    3. differentiation between dancing and choreography relative to the concept of embodiment and expression, a brief introduction to the treatment of expression in BMC® + affect theory;
    4. examination of choreography relative to writing and the concept of principle-based performative-practice.

    please note, all these points refer to actions that can be performed as movement-based experiments in the context of a studio practice. experiment is the primary method i will be referring to in the studio. “experiment” will be defined in real time relative to all or any of the points above (how do you conduct an experiment when you’re both the observer and the observed?).